follow God

I am not a great one for sprinkling my blog with bible quotes because we can all use a quote to suit our own view. Sure I use them when I write something longer and its in the right spirit and context but for the most part I like to write from the heart.

There are 10 basic rules or commandments that God gave us and in my mind if we follow them we cant go far wrong. I say far wrong because we can never follow them absolutely and that is why we ALL need Christ Jesus as our saviour.

Does God love me because I follow His rules or does God love me because I trust and rely on Him?
Those who know me well, know I suffer from panic attacks and I admit many times I have ran about like a headless chicken before I stop and call out to God for help. By nature I am a fixer, that is I like to fix the problem, I like to rely on me but I cant fix all problems and I have learned to go to God first.

For a while there I was trying to live up to what a certain individual wanted me to live up to. I read the books they gave me, tried to think the way they wanted me to, in fact I was trying to please them but the end result was "How could I ever please anyone and at the same time be me?"

I know I should have said NO! I should have said something but I was afraid of not being liked. Afraid of not being accepted. I wanted to please them so much that I was having more anxiety because I couldnt.


Dont base your faith on anyone else but God.
Sure you'll mess up
Sure you'll get somethings wrong but thats were loving friends come and wrap their arms around you and with gentleness guide you.

I will add that the person I was trying to live up to is a good person and I am sure I lack a lot spiritually but with God's grace I hope to be more Christ like.